Small Guy.....

This morning as I was taking my brother to school, I witnessed a group of kids picking on a smaller child, my heart, broke. I immediately jumped in and stopped the argument, I chasitized the children for doing this to someone, and I asked the young boy if he was okay. His face, okay, it broke my heart. I can not stand, at all, for anyone to be injuried or hurt, when I think of teaching, I think of his helpless face. Children, they can be so cruel, so friggin cruel, education shouldn’t be that way, it should be helpful, not harmful. How can I help those that need me….

going back to basics for a while...

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Fat Byatch...

For some reason I've allowed myself to indulge in yesterday and now, I get on a scale and I'm pretty damn disappointed. I weight...gasp....grrr....172 now, holy crap, I can't believe it, of course looking amazing in my extra large shirts doesn't help, but looking at those three numbers did. Crap, I thought I needed to lose 30 pounds, it's more like 40 now...crap... no more beer for me I see.

Anyhow in other news, I am getting the chance to work under a doctor and I'm so damn excited, more news about that to follow-until then. ttyl!

FMLA Over

I go back to work tomorrow (unless I get laid off between now and then...yeah it's possible, but we won't get into that on this blog post), I'm excited to get back to my career, even though I am secretly hoping the job I phone interviewed for calls me back, and I'm so ready for work-life balance to kick in. I'm lucky my mother watches my baby, I couldn't panthom putting her in daycare, I wanted my little girl to have one constant caregiver, i.e., my reasoning for having children early, so I'm blessed my mom is retired! It's amazing how much she's grown and how cute her little personality is, It's pretty cool to see those weeks of endless sleep and cries, are over, well at least for now and we're filled with coos and smiles.

On that note, time to get ready for work!

This Stork Is Closed...

I love being a mother, honestly I do. But I am frightened to have more children. I can not believe this, but it was confirmed. I leaked fluid throughout my pregnancy, I thought it was discharge, but it was my amnotic fluid, now here's the kicker, I produced too much fluid!! So the two evils, they balanced each other out. I had BV, Bacterial Vaginosis, which I've had most of my life, -insert dirty whore comment here- (I'm kidding) add that to years of infertility, extreme morning sickness and the intense fear I had for nine months, I am opting out of getting pregnant again. My husband would like another, however, his part only includes donated the sperm, as he says he wants a son, but when we have his nephew over, he buys him a game and sits him in front of the television... while I end up having to spend as much quality time with them as possible, without babybell missin me and getting jealous..lol....Maybe I will be more open to the more children idea in the future, who knows, I may get the babyblues hard! But I type this as a written account, so that If I do get those feelings I have this to refer to.

Writin The Rules...

I have a week more of maternity leave, that's all.

In order to maximize the time I have with my daughter the following will take place.

1. My husband will be in charge of cleaning every Sunday Morning, I will only do a through cleaning once a month.

2. Cooking, will be done on Sunday and that meal will venture for two days, on Tuesday, that is my husband's day to cook, on Friday we will make a light meal and Saturday is order out.

3. When I get home from work, I will pump, shower and then baby. Baby will be "provided the opportunity to go to bed at 8:30 p.m.

4. Clothing will be ironed on Sunday for the week, Diaper bag will be packed for the week.

5. Must get up at 5:45 a.m. and workout, situps, Monday-Friday, and hip hop abs Mon, Weds & Friday (those days I will wake up at 5:30 a.m.) Baby is woken up for bottle at 6:15 and dressed we must be out the door at 6:45 a.m. to arrive at Mom's at 7:30 a.m. and at work by 8:00 a.m.

6. Leave work at 4:45 p.m. get at Mom's before 5:30 p.m. and home by 6:30 p.m., when DH is out of town, try to stay longer at work and spend the night at mom's, maximizes time with baby and deletes commute.

Mommy's Big Girl..

I don't like to see my baby get bigger, I know that this is life and she must grow up. But I like my skunkbaby to stay a little baby. Oh, I can remember changing her pamper for the first time, oh I never thought poop could smell so good. Every night I sign "Miracle Baby" to her, it's a song I made up, to express just how much of a miracle she is. Aww, and now as she swings in her swing, I look at her and say, "Baby don't ever change".....